Darling... it is a risk to love. Especially after so many shatters to our hearts.
Throughout my writings I talk about the goal of becoming whole on my own. It’s been a topic of fear and also obsession I can admit. I think things that breed obsession in your mind can be revealing and tell you a lot, that is if you’re willing to listen. It can tell you where there has been pain and trauma in your life. It can tell you what the world has convinced you of, what you have convinced yourself of. The thing about obsessions such as this, is that there are usually no backings or evidence to support the thoughts in the first place. It is just the anxious mind running rampant and enough repetition of the thought can make it become reality for you.
Tampering with time.
Sometimes people come into your life at the weirdest times, I’d be lying if I were to say that isn’t a contributor to what makes you so close sometimes though. Tanea is one of those people for me, I often thank her for becoming my friend when she did because I was kind of a wreck and she had to deal with me crying on the reg. But that’s the thing, she never has once shamed me or made me feel less for my journey. She has done nothing but encourage me and tell me she’s proud of me. She has been a constant light in my life since I met her, so once we were forming this friendship I quickly came to the realization that I would try and do right by her to the best of my abilities.
This is one of those philosophical posts. I have thought about this idea for some time now and I love talking about it because it seems to resonate with the majority of people that I share the theory with.
It was late October when I met you.
Average at best.
I met Danica in the 6th grade, and we have been very important to each other ever since that moment. So, when she told me that her and her fiancé Connor were going to get married in February 2023 in Cabo San Lucas, Mexico I set my eyes on that goal and was going to do whatever I had to do to make it there. I joked for a while that I would sell my left arm on the black market if I had to, I was getting to this wedding. For a while it was a stress making sure this goal would come to fruition. So, once I got to Cabo deep breaths set in and I made sure to take many moments to express gratitude. To acknowledge that I made it, and to drink it all up. And what a trip/wedding to remember - my God!
I get pretty hype when discussing this topic because of how much signs have impacted my life personally. I am a big believer in signs that The Universe sends to us to help us along our journey. I am always quick to peer into theology of signs, omens, symbols, numerology; anything of that nature really because I find it all to be very interesting.